New Year, Old Reflection

It was with a great embarkment of anticipation that I stumbled upon the idea of writing my journal on blog. Writing in a way helps to crystalise my thoughts, scrutinise my ideas and conjugate my views. Thanks for the brothers and sisters who had inspired me with your life through your blogs, for it had encouraged me greatly to kickstart mine as well. :) I had actually dabbled for a long time as to whether I should start my blog, not because I am insecure to share my innermost thoughts through the public domain; but it is more of whether I have the consistency to update and maintain one. I do not want a very sporadic and outdated blog at the end of the day. However, seeing how God has been so real in each and every one of the brothers & sisters' life touches me greatly and serves as a source of inspiration for me to thank God conscientiously for what he has done and will be continuing to do in my life.

Somehow as i was writing this entry, my mind travelled back to Dr. Ravi Zacharius seminar in Singapore which I have attended 3 years ago. I remembered vividly that I was awestruck by one truth that he shared..

"I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. And whoever welcomes a little child like this in my name welcomes me." - Matthew 18: 3-4

Such simple yet thought-provoking truth isn't it? Sometimes I think that Human being have the tendency to over-complicate simple Godly precepts. We over-rationalised our lives, setting subtle ceilings to limit the God-given potential in our lives and customising God into our ways instead of living within His boundaries. I think at the core of our hearts lies a longing for absolute security, to be able to know things with absolute certainty.We feel that we should be absolutely sure of everything that we believe. Surely, we ought to be able to prove everything that we believe. However I think we all feel lost sometimes. In fact, we probably feel lost all the time, just that the magnitude of this sentiment varies. Sometimes we get out of the rut, and sometimes we slip back in without too much thought.

Are we so caught up with having the need for absolute certainty or absolute security in our feelings before we trust God for the next step? (Or for non-believers,the decision to accepting Him as our Lord and saviour.)

More like desensitised I guess...We go through so much crap in life that we stop feeling anymore. Maybe that's the sad bit about growing up. Some call it maturity. I think it's a beautiful child like quality lost. Faith is not belief without proof, but trust without reservations—a trust in a God who has shown himself worthy of that trust—a trust in His Word that promises a Hope and a Future. The seed of any great act is but a mere thought. Then we nourish it with action. Then it blossoms into an eventuality.

God... as I enter into 2007, my resolution is for you to teach to relearn the beauty of the blooming bud once again even if it means me having to be jolted roughly out of my comfort zone.

Happy New Year Everyone!! :)