INTROSPECTIVE

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Interesting Test

INTEREST IN JOB CONTENT
(Those tasks you want to perform)
Motivational levels are highest for Zheng when in the limelight where recognition is earned, deserved, or given. However, there is no "ego trip" involved in the effort. Zheng can comfortably function in the foreground or the background. Nonetheless, recognition is a motivating vocational factor.

TEMPERAMENT FOR THE JOB
(How you prefer to perform tasks)
Zheng prefers and needs change and variety. Change is motivating, stimulating, and energizing. Zheng looks for new options, challenges, assignments, acquaintances, relationships, and even new careers in new places. Zheng tires of sameness, repetition, and routine even in activities that were interesting at the start. Once things become routine for Zheng, this becomes a motivation to move on to more interesting things.

APTITUDE FOR THE JOB
(Expression of performing tasks)
Although Zheng does not specifically prefer mathematics, motivation is not swayed one way or the other as there is an adequate awareness and ability utilizing mathematics. Other traits will indicate which kind of math that preference applies to: theoretical, statistical, analytical, computational, business, administrative, clerical, arithmetic, or posting. Wherever it works best, it is a vocational asset.

PEOPLE
(How you relate to people, in priority order)
Zheng is ready, willing, and perhaps even able (or trainable) to persuasively influence others with the intent or hope to convince them to agree with what is said. Because this trait is moderately motivated, Zheng is probably not inclined to make a living by selling on a commission basis. Instead, persuasion is interactive with other traits and finds expression in other ways such as teaching, counseling, etc.

THINGS
(How you relate to things, in priority order)
Zheng has natural preferences related to mechanical, technical, or systems engineering. It includes natural mechanical savvy about "what makes things tick" and motivation to design, assemble, build, install, or operate machines, equipment, or systems. Engineering may or may not be the major vocational activity.

DATA
(How you relate to data, in priority order)
Zheng is highly motivated for routine, factual, mathematical problems related to operational, procedural, or administrative activities. This includes good logic, analysis, and attention to detail. (NOTE: Business math may be motivated strongly enough to be the heart of professional or vocational activity, as a CPA or corporate accountant, for instance).

REASONING
(How you relate to reasoning, in priority order)
Zheng is motivated and perhaps even mentally equipped for troubleshooting: to recognize or otherwise identify problems or developing problems in familiar operational or procedural areas; to tackle problems with intent to solve the problems and restore function to former levels or better. (NOTE: This requires onsite familiarity with those operations, a sense or suspicion of where things might or could break down, and savvy about ways to fix the problem).

MATHEMATICAL CAPACITY
(How you relate to the applied usage of math)
Zheng prefers to consider math extending more toward theory, abstract concepts, experimental applications, etc. Because of the moderate motivational level for this theoretical activity, it is not likely that it would be satisfying as a primary vocation or have too heavy an emphasis. However, it remains a valuable asset that extends normal capability beyond usual activities.

LANGUAGE CAPACITY
(How you relate to the usage of language)
Zheng has creative writing and communicating preferences that are important vocational motivators. Mental preferences are holistic and conceptual and include abstract ideas, concepts, theory, capacity for fiction, and symbols. Writing probably is not so motivational as to be a specialized or professional activity, but Zheng probably does consider it in particular areas. Other worker traits should be screened to determine where and how writing and other communicative media fits into Zheng's vocational preferences.

Saturday, July 11, 2009

The Beauty Of Worship

"Worship is the submission of all of our nature to God. It is the quickening of conscience by His holiness, nourishment of mind by His truth, purifying of imgination by His beauty, opening of the heart to His love, and submission of will to His purpose. All this gathered up in adoration is the greatest of all expressions of which we are capable."

In short,worship is what binds all of life together and gives it a single focus. Conscience. Mind. Imagination. Heart. Will. All knit together in worship, for here love, reverence, sacrifice, motive, truth, and obedienceare harnessed before the one who made us, who alone can bring unity in the diversity with which He has fashioned us. The breakdown in most of our thinking occurs when we allow ourselves to become fragmented and life loses its focus. Worship takes the diversity of our loves and abilities and coalesces them into a direction in life.

What a beautiful God that never fails to amaze me when I learn to worship him with all I am! :)

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Reflection Of A Disciple

I found this post by Wenjiang an extremely meaningful post, an heartfelt sharing and something that struck a chord within my heart. At times, I could really identify with the things that is mentioned within his post..

http://reflectionsofadisciple.blogspot.com/2008/12/reflection-on-one-thing-i-love.html

The past year of ministry has really been an eye opener for me. Back then in student ministry, my perspective of church and people around me used to be that of trusting people unreservingly and trusting leaders in the decisions that they make for the kingdom. Subsequently, as my spiritually walk with God grew as I learn to lead and serve, my trust for people waviered and I started to realise and wonder how come people seemes to choose to stay at where they are and making sub-optimal decisions and struggling with the same old issues again and again. I started to think how come people/leaders are not making sense of their experience enough in their lives. I mean if God is indeed real, shouldn't we expect breakthrus' as readily as it comes as we choose to apply his principles and word in our lives? God consistently break my naviety as I continue to observe that people are easily succumbed by sins, enslaved by a lack of faith in their lives, self-absorption, trusting in deceptions and lies, being emotionally led instead of being from the word of God. (including me in case your are thinking it is an self-righteous thought.)

The issue of balancing grace and speaking the truth has always been of paramount importance to me, particularly as a spiritual mentor and probably one of the most difficult area to manage as a Care Leader. (I am still very raw in managing this area for my life and the flocks under my care)In the church setting, at one extreme, if grace is consistently being shown, people will turned out to be very inward-looking and self-absorbed, focusing on individual needs, yet at the other extreme, constant harping on confronting the truth only makes you a legalistic church and people perceive you as a cold person. I could have easily chosen the path of just being a member, focusing on my own spiritual walk with God.

But this part is so heartfelt, "I do not look from the outside and say that the church cannot make it, but I recognise that I am part of the Church of Christ who is as equally fallible as any other, and as I endeavor to keep my life right in His eyes, I endeavor to build church, to do church the way it is meant to be, not the way I want it, but the way that God wants it, that is revealed in principles in His Word, in His leading, directing and guidance through the counsel of the leaders, through observing the sign of the times and through patiently waiting on Him. I endeavor to be part of the process, to be part of the game. I do not wait until the church is right before I join it (again). I do my part to get it right."

As 2008 ended, one of the most important lessons learned personally has been the balance between empathising vs confronting the truth and doing what is right. Indeed I also readily agree to my shepherd's David reflection, excerpts of it : My understanding of how God works is that God tests us in areas that we need to be tested in; if we fail to measure up, it will be an issue that God would keep getting back to us on. Because He cares and He knows that we need strengthening in those areas. That those are the hindrances to the new and full life that God has for us. That means God would allow situations to surface the core needs and motivations of the heart. It's another way of saying that God's word shows us up for who we are deep inside, bones and marrow... We are not pretty inside. It is a fact that should always bring sobriety to our life.

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Tuesday, July 15, 2008

CrossRoads




Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Building Convenant Relationship

I was doing my reflection thru a Christian article and somehow God brought me flashbacks on the Healthy relationship seminar as well as the recent CG discussion that we had at Centrepoint. I thank God for speaking deeply to my life...

“Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their labor. For if they fall, one will lift up his companion. But woe to him who is alone when he falls, for he has no one to help him up. Again, if two lie down together, they will keep warm; But how can one be warm alone? Though one may be overpowered by another, two can withstand him. And a threefold cord is not quickly broken.” Ecclesiastes 4:9-12 (NKJV)

People in every culture need relationships of intimate trust. Everyone needs friends with whom they can be open and reveal their deepest feelings. God created everyone to want to belong, to accomplish, to understand and to be understood. He made us to need love, self-respect, meaning and purpose. We are living in the world with rampant emotional and psychological problems. Our world has become more and more individualistic. Many Christians do not have fellow brothers and sisters in which they can really confide and pour their hearts out. This in fact stunts their spiritual growth. Developing relationships, especially for people in the ministry, is very important and may be the key to longevity in ministry. We too need friends in our ministry. We need friends to keep us accountable. We need friends to share our burden and joy. We need friends to share our deepest secrets without fear of being condemned. If we are to have longevity in our ministry, we need to start to make some friends and build covenant relationship with them.

Looking back at my life, haha what an irony..I realised that the more I know about God's precepts and receiving teachings about relationship, the more I dun know about it and the more I am relearning them...People has been giving me feedback that I am a person that always shares thru my mind and that I do somewhat possesses a good perspective about matters (well..depending sometimes my radar can be very off :P) ; but It seems that I always suppressed my emotions and do not readily share what I feel. Maybe it is true and maybe it is not, I am not sure. I always thought that emotions should always be balanced by thinking and maintained by God's Word...Furthermore, My life experiences and my upbringing has probably conditioned me to process my feelings into thinking at the first instinct.

At the core of myself, I am actually a person that thinks and feels alot (whether it is fruitful or not is another matter altogether.) Many times I do withhold from sharing the raw essence of how I feel because I think that it doesn't help or sharing it is an overkill to people in situations. (Your might be surprised by how wild my passing thoughts can be.) To me, I perceived that as sort of a balance. I always looked at relationship with people, issues and problems to be solved rather than that as a process in itself. But as time passes by, it becomes more apparent to me that holding on to that mindset makes me gradually lose sight of how people actually feels and that implicitly, people feel that I am a guarded person. Most imortantly, I am gradually losing touch of my emotions. I prob will lose out on "potentially" deeper friendship and relationships.

God, I prayed for you to help me get more connected with people and worked towards building a deeper convenant relationship with people around me, to understand them for who they are. Widen my emotional spectum by deepening my understanding of your love in the bible. :)

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

My Makeup & Intelligence

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ESTPs are action-loving, "here and now" realists with excellent people skills. Informal, risk-taking, fast-paced and adaptable, they are not always in agreeance with rules and regulations. They are tactical problem solvers that desire quick results. ESTPs, who present a friendly and enthusiastic face, are straightshooters that are able to handle criticism. "Enthusiastic and excitable, ESTPs are "doers" who live in the world of action. Blunt, straight-forward risk-takers, they are willing to plunge right into things and get their hands dirty. They live in the here-and-now, and place little importance on introspection or theory. The look at the facts of a situation, quickly decide what should be done, execute the action, and move on to the next thing."

Hmm..this test is pretty interesting, I guess somewhat it is quite representative of me. One thing I see out of this is that I should learn to slow things down at times and reflect more deeply before I execute plans and as well as being more aware of how people may feel.. :)

Thursday, December 27, 2007

My Personality

You Are An ISFP
The Artist
You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now).You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children.Simply put, you enjoy beauty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life.Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs.
In love, you are quiet and sweet yet very passionate. You love easily.You have an underlying love for all living things, and it's easy for you to accept someone into your heart.
At work, you do best in an unconventional position. You express yourself well and can work with almost anyone.You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.
How you see yourself: Sympathetic, kind, and communicative
When other people don't get you, they see you as: Incompetent, insecure, and overly sensitive